Jay-Z admits his infidelity and talks about how his marriage to Beyoncé survived
"The hardest thing is to see in the face of the other the pain you have caused and then have to deal with it," says the singer and producer in an interview with 'The New York Times'
Jay-Z seemed to refer to his infidelity in one of the songs on his latest album, 4:44, but now the singer has confirmed it in an interview in The New York Times, in which he also opens up about how he survived his marriage with Beyoncé. "The hardest thing is to see in the face of the other the pain you have caused and then have to deal with it," says the singer and producer.
The musician, who starts as one of the favorites of the next Grammy Awards with eight nominations, admits in the interview to having cheated on the singer and also reveals that both used the moments of composition and their songs as therapy, which saved them from divorce after nine years married, 15 years of relationship and, now, three children together. “You have to survive and when you enter that place, what happens? You shut down all emotions and you can't connect. Even with women, so you can't connect with anything or anyone… In my case, it was profound. And then, all things happen from there: infidelity ", confesses Dean Baquet, executive director of the New York newspaper.
After Jay-Z, 47, confessed that he was unfaithful to Beyoncé, 36, as a result of his tendency to close emotionally due to his childhood, the artist explains that the marriage began to compose music as therapy and without having in mind to publish the songs on an album. “But the music that she was making took a step further and went further. So her album came out in opposition to the collaborative album we were working on, ”she says of the Lemonade album, a critical and sales success in which the diva mentioned in the song Sorry a blonde-haired Becky, who made rivers run ink about the problems and infidelities of one of the most influential, powerful and wealthy couples in the world.
Of the songs they composed together, he does not reveal if the marriage plans that one day they will see the light, but he does admit that it was very hard for both of them to interpret deeply personal themes in front of each other, something that was painful "and very, very uncomfortable," says Jay. -Z. “At the end of the day we really had a very healthy respect for each other's art. I think she's incredible, ”he says about that creative process and about Beyoncé.
“Most of the people leave, the divorce rate is like 50% because most of them can't look at themselves. The hardest part is seeing the pain you've caused in someone else's eyes, and dealing with it. So most of them do not, ”says the businessman, also without revealing much more information about his privacy or a marital crisis. In addition to music therapy as a couple, the singer confesses that he also went to a conventional therapy that has helped him grow.
An interview in which, although he talks about politics, basketball or his complicated friendship with Kanye West, Jay-Z shows the most personal and vulnerable part of him. “The hardest thing a man can do is cry. Exposing your feelings, being vulnerable in front of the world. There is the real strength. You feel like you have to be a cautious person. But that is not real. It's false".
