Bella Hadid, the supermodel who has learned to live with depression: "I cried every day"
Gigi Hadid's sister is honest with her 47 million followers about the disease she has suffered since adolescence
"Chemical imbalance is a roller coaster." "I feel guilty for having an amazing life and being depressed"
She is one of the most beautiful women in the world, one of the most sought after models and with the most followers on Instagram (47 million). But Bella Hadid has lived with depression for many years. She is one more example that this disease that affects 280 million people in the world has nothing to do with the physical, social status or personal circumstances.
The 25-year-old American supermodel already revealed two years ago that she suffered from chronic depression. And five days ago she made an impact again with a publication on Instagram, in which through a series of selfies in which she appeared visibly deteriorated and in tears, she confessed that her fight for her mental health is already a constant in her life. life.
Chemical imbalance is not linear, it is a roller coaster with ups and downs
"The chemical imbalance is not linear and it is almost like a roller coaster of obstacles that flows, it has its ups and downs and from side to side", Bella Hadid was honest, once again shattering the belief that "being depressed means crying all day", but you can be sick and have moments of happiness at the same time. A message that RocΓo Carrasco's documentary on Telecinco also helped convey, when the press blamed RocΓo Jurado's granddaughter for the sadness of not being able to see her children contrasted with the celebration of her wedding with Fidel Albiac in the magazines .
Precisely, Bella Hadid reappeared this weekend in the media, relaxed on the beaches of Miami after attending the wedding of a friend of hers.
Everyone feels lost, confused, not knowing why they are here
Bella Hadid, sister of the also model Gigi Hadid (26 years old), now topical for her breakup with the former star of One Direction, Zayn Malik, explained that "that feeling of thinking that you are not good enough or being insecure about your work is natural, but at the same time, I feel that it is taught", he reflects.
"All human beings are different, each one of them has something very special and unique to offer. And people forget that everyone basically feels the same: lost, confused, not quite sure why they are here. That anxiety that everyone feels and tries to hide in some way. Let's unite in our flaws, in our insecurities, in our joy, in our happiness and accept everything as beautiful and natural, "he wrote.
If you work hard, you can learn to understand your pain and manage it
And she ended her message by telling her fans "there is always light at the end of the tunnel" and "it gets better", something that took her "a long time" to learn, but she did after "enough meltdowns and exhaustion ". "If you put enough effort into yourself, spend time alone to understand your traumas, triggers, joys, and routine, you can always understand or learn more about your own pain and how to manage it, which is all you can ask of yourself," he reflected. "It can be days, weeks or months, but everything gets better," she added.
Bella Hadid opened up about her frailty in response to a video in which actress Willow Smith - daughter of Will Smith, Jada Pinkett Smith - revealed her own battle with mental health. "I adore you and your words. They have made me feel a little less alone and that's why I want to post this," she explained:
The model highlighted how the pressure of social networks influences, from which she already took a break in January to focus on her mental health. "Social media isn't real. Sometimes all you need to hear is that you're not alone. So I tell you, you're not alone. I love you, I see you and I hear you."
I felt guilty for having an amazing life and being depressed. It did not make sense
The first time that Bella Hadid spoke about her depression was in 2019. "I feel guilty for being able to live this amazing life, have the opportunities that I have, but somehow I'm still depressed. It doesn't make sense," she said during the Vogue Fashion Festival in Paris.
The model said she felt bad for being sad when her career was at its peak, having walked for fashion greats like the late Karl Lagerfield and Tom Ford.
"I cried every morning, I cried during lunch breaks, I cried before I went to sleep," he said. "I was very emotionally unstable during the time that I was working 14-hour days for four months straight, since I was 18 years old. I think I just wanted to breathe a little bit. And that's how I got into a spiral."
A month earlier, coinciding with Mental Health Day, Hadid also used Instagram to refer to those who, like her, live with depression.
"It's a struggle that I know most of us have faced in the past or are currently dealing with. And if not, you probably know someone (…), but finally I'm at a point where it doesn't consume me as much as before".
And she explained why she was making it public. "I feel like I'd be doing myself a disservice if I didn't talk about something like mental health, because that's what I've been going through intensely for the last five years," Hadid said in 2019. "We're here and we're fine." But it takes time."
Her sister, model Gigi Hadid, also spoke of anxiety
Gigi Hadid, Bella's older sister, who has twice as many followers on Instagram (71 million), has also spoken out about mental health, especially how to deal with anxiety. During a panel for Reebok, Gigi detailed how being in the public eye can affect her emotional stability, describing how the pressure of living up to this perfect image has left her with feelings of anxiety.
Who is Bella Hadid and what is her famous family like
Bella Hadid belongs to one of the most famous families in the world. In recent years she has gone from being Gigi's "little brunette sister" to becoming one of the top models of her generation.
She was born in Washington, D.C., the daughter of former model and television personality Yolanda Foster, of Dutch origin, and billionaire Palestinian real estate developer Mohamed Hadid. She and her family are originally from Santa Barbara, California.
In addition to Gigi, Bella has a younger brother, Anwar Hadid, and two stepsisters, Marielle and Alana, on her father's side. Following her parents' divorce, her mother married music producer David Foster and they divorced in 2015.
Before dedicating herself to modeling, Bella's dream was to be a horse rider, but because of the tick disease (Lyme), diagnosed in 2012 and which her mother and brother also suffered from, she had to leave it and decided to follow in the footsteps of her sister in the world of fashion.
In 2014 she signed with the IMG Models agency. In 2015 she moved to New York (USA) to study photography at Parson School of Design, she made her debut for Channel and started appearing in fashion magazines. In 2016 she debuted at the Victoria's Secret Fashion Show, where she coincided with her sister Gigi.
In those years she paraded in Fashion Week in New York, London, Paris and Milan, and got her first cover in Vogue, later starring in many others.
In 2018, Forbes magazine ranked her as the eighth highest-paid model in the world, with a salary of $8.5 million.
Personally, she has also had her controversies. In 2015, she was arrested by the Los Angeles police for drunk driving. She had her driver's license taken away for a year and she had to do 25 hours of community service.
In 2015 she was a couple of the Canadian singer The Weeknd, with whom she made the music video In The Night and was until 2018. In July 2021, Bella confirmed that she had been in a relationship with the graphic designer Marc Kalman for a year, with whom she was seen at the Cannes Festival and starred in this romantic kiss on their networks:
