Jay-Z admits his infidelity and talks about how his marriage with Beyoncé survived
"The hardest thing is to see the pain you have caused in the other's face and then have to deal with it," says the singer and producer in an interview with 'The New York Times'
Jay-Z seemed to refer to his infidelity in one of the songs on his latest album, 4:44, but now the singer has confirmed it in an interview in The New York Times, in which he also opens up about how he survived his marriage to Beyonce. "The hardest thing is to see in the other's face the pain you have caused and then have to deal with it," says the singer and producer.
The musician, who starts as one of the favorites of the next Grammy Awards with eight nominations, admits in the interview to have cheated on the singer and also reveals that both used the moments of composition and their songs as therapy, which saved them from divorce after nine years married, 15 of relationship and, now, three children together. “You have to survive and when you walk into that place, what happens? You shut down all emotions and can't connect. Even with women, so you can't connect with anything or anyone… In my case, it was profound. And then, all things happen from there: infidelity," he confesses to Dean Baquet, executive director of the New York newspaper.
After the confession of Jay-Z, 47, that he was unfaithful to Beyoncé, 36, as a result of his tendency to close emotionally due to his childhood, the artist explains that the marriage began to compose music as therapy and without having in mind to publish the songs in a disc. “But the music that she was making went a step further and went further. So her album came out in opposition to the collaborative album we were working on,” she says of the Lemonade album, a critical and sales success in which the diva mentioned in the song Sorry a blond-haired Becky, who made rivers flow. of ink about the problems and infidelities of one of the most influential, powerful and rich couples in the world.
Of the songs they composed together, he does not reveal if the marriage plans that one day they will see the light, but he does confess that it was very hard for the two to interpret deeply personal themes in front of the other, something that was painful "and very very uncomfortable," says Jay. -Z. “At the end of the day we really had a very healthy respect for each other's art. I think she's amazing, ”he says about that creative process and about Beyoncé.
“Most people leave, the divorce rate is like 50% because most people can't look at themselves. The hardest part is seeing the pain you've caused in someone else's eyes, and dealing with it. So the majority do not do it, ”says the also businessman without revealing much more information about his intimacy or a marital crisis. In addition to musical therapy as a couple, the singer confesses that he also went to conventional therapy that has helped him grow.
An interview in which, although he talks about politics, basketball or his complicated relationship with Kanye West, Jay-Z shows the most personal and vulnerable part of him. “The hardest thing a man can do is cry. Expose your feelings, be vulnerable in front of the world. That's where the real strength lies. You feel you have to be a cautious person. But that is not real. It's false".
